Unsetbacks

I think that a lot of people need some inspiration about the tide. Some aren't quite getting the idea that fighting the world is going to win.

Example #1

When I had a close encounter with the counter the other night, I knew that I was hurt. I am hurt worse than I thought, but after my dog helped me wake up, I realized that I could not fix the situation. Stop the bleeding. I stumbled to the bathroom and got a washcloth wet it and applied pressure. I did not worry about the mess or how bad it could be, but first I needed to get stable and get my sense about me. When I got to the point of sanity (or as close as I get) I was able to help myself and the situation.

Example #2

If you have a large load to move, lets say twenty books, you don't pick them all up at once. You take trips. You don't fight the load, you work it out. If you have something like a dolly that can handle the load you use it. Meds. Work with the problems, any problems in your life.

Everyone is in this tide with us, even the "normal" ones. We are just a little farther out to sea. That can be better. We are not in the surf hitting the rocks occasionally. (That is when "normal" people freak out. We have had time to look at ourselves. Now I know each of you are saying, "My life sucks, I can't take this shit any longer!" I understand all too well. I fought for over two decades. Please, don't give up on yourself! There is a wonderful view that you are missing!

When I stopped fighting the tide, on my meds and much therapy, I stopped one day and looked up. In the mist of the waves that I was floating on I saw the most amazing site. The stars, from where we are are so bright and you can see everything on the moon. Each star has a color and the planets are gorgeous. The people at the shore are hindered by the lights of the city and man made things. We see ourselves better than and person who has not had this journey can.

It is scary to stop fighting the tide. Your first thought is I am going to drown. I didn't say stop swimming just stop using so much energy and tread water. This is the point that you say, "I AM GOING TO WORK ON MY LIFE!" Tell the doctors if the meds aren't working, write down the symptoms that you haven't told them. You must find the energy to get proactive in you life. Take the first step towards getting help. A first step can be cleaning a room of the house, walking outside to the corner and back, texting on the discussion board that helps someone. The only problem, is you must make the first step in the stopping of the fight. Each of us can do this. I did, and if you post a comment, I PROMISE to answer each one and help EVERYONE I CAN. I do not want anyone to suffer as I did.

Remember, that the tide doesn't just flow out, when if comes in and the energy increases jump on it. Keep a journal of your progress. I have looked back at mine and have seen just how much I have suffered. I don't want anyone to suffer like that.